A few days ago I saw a video, the content doesn't need to be discussed but there was one thing that was said that really struck a nerve with me. It was said, "Why would you ever want to follow someone who is overweight, or listen to them as a motivator, or find them inspirational as a "fit person."
For someone that is overweight, and is trying and succeeding in losing weight (up until I got pregnant mind you,) I ask myself that same questions ALL THE TIME! Why on earth would you even find inspiration in me? Shouldn't I be "fit" before I try giving my 2 cents? People must think I am not trying hard enough and that if I just tried harder I would be "thinner". I run these questions all the time in my head. It is so hard not to listen to these voices but here is how I have answered these questions.
First of all. We all start somewhere. Right? Even if someone just wants to lose 5 pounds vs 100 pounds we all have a starting point. It is a journey. It takes time. And chronicling that journey is actually really awesome to see the changes. The obstacles that have been overcome. The ups and downs. The amount that someone learns from starting their journey to getting to their "finish line."
Secondly, I know I am never, ever going to be a size two. It is NEVER going to happen. 6th grade, I weighed 125 pounds. and I was not fat. Even in high school, when I thought I was a fat cow I was not fat. I was a healthy 165-170 pounds. It wasn't until I stopped eating and exercised a ton that I lost weight and got down to 145. But it was too thin for my body type and unsustainable once I started eating again. And I am ok with that.
I believe in being fit and healthy over being skinny. And darn it, I will be rocking a healthy weight whatever weight I am because that is what I do. Even at my current 240 pounds I am still eating right, (with a little indulgence every now and then) and exercising when I can (It will be more as my morning sickness wears off!) My blood pressure is amazing for an "overweight person". My doctor knows that I am am taking care of myself and is so proud of me for not giving up despite everything I have been through. And as far as being pregnant, it is possible to lose weight while pregnant, but right now, I am listening to my body. And taking care of it. My goal is to be as healthy as possible and hopefully that means, only gaining the weight my body needs not excess weight.
Third, there is someone out there, many someones out there that are struggling just as much as I am. And me showing them that I got through the sugar addiction, the plateaus, the yo-yo dieting, the overall crap of trying to lose weight. If that gives one person the faith that they can actually do it too, then I have done my job! Seriously, because we all start from somewhere. We all have to become humbled and literally changed by what we are going through to make changes in our body.
There are health and fitness motivators in all shapes and sizes out there. Don't judge them just because some of them aren't at what society considers a typical healthy body type. That is the great thing about the internet. You find something you like, you can come back, find something you don't and you don't. (I hope you like it here though and you keep on coming back for more!)
255 pounds on the left and 237 on the right! I am a plus sized health and fitness motivator, supporter and educator!
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